Hi Y’all. It’s been a little while since I’ve sat down and just wrote my thoughts down. It has been an absolutely crazy month! We went to Mexico, got married, and are currently in the process of moving into our home. There has been a topic weighing heavy on my heart for some time now. It affects many parents and I know I’m definitely not alone. It was an easy decision that I would be going back to work after I had sweet Em. This decision was not made because I didn’t want to be a stay at home mom; this decision came easily because we aren’t currently in a place that being a stay at home mom is possible. My husband is an engineer downtown and I’m a senior associate at an ecommerce company. We just turned 24 and 25 with our new careers and a brand new baby. We wanted to buy our very own home and in order to do that we both needed to be working. Providing for my baby girl is my number one priority. If working meant I could provide all of the things she needed than I would do it. It wasn’t until recently that I realized that our society doesn’t take into consideration the working mom’s and dad’s out there. I wanted to enroll Em into baby music or gym class, a mommy and me class. I searched and searched and come up empty. There are tons of classes offered in our community but none of them are in the evening after work or on the weekends. I felt left out, I felt like I was taking something away from my little girl because she has two parents that work. I tried to go through our church but the only times they have mommy and me are during the week on Wednesday’s at 10AM. How is this okay? Why isn’t there any type of establishment that specifically has a working mom or dad in mind?
I see on Instagram all of these stay at home momma’s enjoying activities, classes, and each other, and I’m envious. I think I’m more envious that they get to spend all of their time with their littles. I do feel like I should say that I don’t think that being a stay at home mom is easy by any means. My mom was a stay at home mom until my sister’s and I were in school. It is hard work that never ends. A lot of mom’s and dad’s give up a career they worked hard for in order to take care of their kiddos. I commend you.
In an ideal world I would get to spend hours and hours with my girl. I would get to love on her all day, play and give snuggles during nap time. I feel like I’m missing out on half of her life, I’m living her day through pictures and videos I get from my mom. It’s hard being away from her and I think it has made leaving her on the weekends even just few a few hours even harder. She’s almost 10 months and I feel like the feeling of missing out won’t stop anytime soon.
I think the mommy and me class sparked all of these feelings not because I was dead set on getting into a class, but upset that I can’t do fun things will my little love during the day. The class was just another thing I was missing out on with Em. Maybe this will get easier as she gets older, I’m not sure. But leaving that sweet girl every morning breaks my heart.
All of you working Momma’s and daddy’s out there, do you struggle with the same thing? Stay at home momma’s and daddy’s please feel free to put your opinion in here. There may be things that you feel are catered to working parents too!